New Year, New Weight Gain, New Goals.

Me with my awesome secret Santa pres from work

Well i am back AGAIN. I am here for the foreseeable. I've not been very good at this blogging thing, you may have noticed. I've put on weight (a LOT) and I haven't done any exercise since November (well i went for a swim on Sunday but before THEN) and generally I'm in need of a massive kick up the butt. I was hoping to be 4 stone lighter by now because i want to try and conceive baby number 2 this year. But that's not going to plan, having put on most of the weight i lost last year. So I am giving myself at least January until we start trying (is this too much info again?! I don't have a very sensitive radar for what is acceptable and what isn't...). During which I have signed myself up for a month off the booze to support Cancer Research. 

This is for 2 reasons. One selfish, I need an extra boost to my willpower...I'm not sure i can do it alone. And secondly the non-selfish: In the months i have been "offline" as it were, I have lost 2 dear people to Cancer. My dad's sister, Auntie Louise. Wonderful lady and loving mother to my close cousin's, Elle and Richard. And then one of my very close friend's daughter. Who i have known since before she was born, and was born just 3 days after Gus. I don't think anything could be worse than losing your child. Cancer is evil. My Nana died of it 8 years ago just as my own mother was diagnosed with it. Luckily she survived it but the the anti-cancer drugs she's been on for 8 years had riddled her body with side effects and irreparable damage, not least crippling arthritis and the possibility of it returning terrifies me almost daily. SO on that cheery note (!!!) I decided that a Cancer charity should be the one to benefit from the challenge. If you fancy supporting me then bob over to my page here: 

http://www.justgiving.com/dryathlete-jess-palmer

Along with this, i am returning to Weight Watcher's tomorrow night. I know it's not going to be good as i have weighed myself in preparation. And i have borrowed a Wii from my mum and bought "Just Dance 3" so that i can get fit enough to return to zumba classes (yes that word is BACK!) before i become a blob for 9 months. 

I'm sure there's lots of things i could be telling you about the time between now and the last blog but I'm not sure either of us care that much do we?! I am back and that's the main thing. HOORAH I hear you cry! Your enthusiasm is DEAFENING. 

Back to the no booze thing tho...i am always hyper aware that i probably drink WAAAAAAAAAAY more than i should or than anyone else i know, especially those with young children. So giving up for a month is really daunting. I have obviously managed to give up before...for 9 months! BUT i was terrified then that i wouldn't make it thru the pregnancy without having a massive brain wrong and getting completely smashed in a fit of desperation. Of course i didn't. I'm not a total moron. But I'm having those stupid thoughts again....what if i can't make it 9 months booze free??? So to address this ridiculousness the month ban is a sort of lead up to that, to prove to myself that I'm not actually a raging stinky booze hound. 

Horrific pic of me but fitting inspiration to lose that arm flab.

In conclusion, i will be banging on about the booze ban for the next few weeks, along with zumba and fat club and all the usual crap. If you even remotely interested, then stick around dudes. It'll probably be a bumpy ride!!!!!!!!!!!!!